channeling Chaka Khan

last night i was up late watching TV with my friend snuggled up with our dogs and we had some real good heart to heart conversations and it dawned on me that Damn it, I used to be HOT!

I honestly believe that at some point in every woman's life she deserves to feel that she is hot and sexy and gorgeous and that there is no guy that is out of her league. I used to have that feeling...I used to be able to walk in to a club, a bar, anywhere and know that I was a good looking girl and that I was a catch. I used to be able to walk into a room with confidence and know that whomever i encounter will find me a person of value with something to offer.

Now i don't mean to come off arrogant or delusional. And its not that i claim to be the next Angelina Jolie. Its more about the attitude, the mind set, the confidence. And i realize that over the last 5 years I have slowly lost my POWER. And now I want my Power back.

I am tired of feeling like a wash out, like a left over, like a discard. I am tired of feeling pathetic and fat and ugly. I am tired of feeling like a has been. I am tired of being tired of myself and my life.

So starting yesterday I have begun to work out again. I want to regain my health, my strength, my figure, my confidence, my power